Betwixt and Between.

I sit in a place that is the middle
Betwixt and Between,
 if you will.
I inhabit a space,
that makes it difficult to settle.
Easy to bounce,
from one thought to another.
Betwixt and Between,
If you will.
 Thoughts and Images,
Words and sounds,
Emotion and movement,
A cohesive tale.
The only movement from me,
is the movement of my fingers on the keyboard.
Sound of the rythmic tapping of the keys
the occaisional murmur of
Betwixt and Between.

What’s happenning now.

The hubby has made the decision after having a second opinion not to have the surgery. ( I realized that in my silence I hadn’t told anyone his decision. I just want another MRI in a few months so that we can make sure the nerve hasn’t  decided to fuse to the bone or the disc or anywhere else it shouldn’t be.)

I went to M&M and as we say refilled my well. I got a few request for partials and one for a full, so I’m busy looking everything over. I networked and simply talked to other like minded women. I danced my ass off.
I ran a five miler for the first time. I ran the entire way even though the fourth mile kicked my ass. My mantra for the first three had been you can do this. My mantra for the last two was literally don’t puss out. (I’m a delicate flower can’t you tell)
I managed to run it in and hour and five minutes. Which if you knew me meant I was over my expected time by five minutes. Like that actually matters. What matters is, a few things that I’ve been working on for myself emotionally and mentally came together on that run somewhere along mile 3.  These are intensely personal and private and they needed to be worked out.
My hubby couldn’t refrain from the I told you so when I came home and told him some of the things I’d worked through. And I quote “I’ve only been telling you that for the past nine years.”
I refrained from reminding him that the household projects he’s suddenly developed a burning interest in? Yeah those, I’ve been gently and not so gently suggesting for the past nine years.  See no tit for tat even though it feels like I’m severing my tongue.

Then this popped up yesterday and the quote says it more eloquently than I have. This is the reason I run and sort of the reason I write:

“As I get older I see that running has changed for me. What used to be about burning calories is now more about burning up what is false. Lies I used to tell myself about who I was and what I could do, friendships that cannot withstand hills or miles, the approval I no longer need to seek, and solidarity that cannot bear silence. I run to burn up what I don’t need and ignite what I do.”

-Kristin Armstrong

Busy, Busy, Busy!

Hi everybody! Sorry I’ve been away for so long. I pretty much achieved everything on my summer to do list with the kids. Everything except Disney. Honestly it was way to hot and grandma turned out to be really busy as well.

We had a good and eventful summer. We made it to Charleston, WV. Atlanta, GA and I took a week and spent celebrated my birthday and my cousins in Chicago, IL. Just the two of us, no kids, no husbands.

Chicago is a cool place, but I live in Florida my poor feet didn’t know what too make of all the walking. I do have to tell you that it did bring to light that I need to get into shape. A friend of mine in ATl is well on her way to getting there. So proud of you Nicki.

Still writing. Just finished plotting my next project. I know you looked at my side bar and want to know what’s happened with Vundracon. It needs re plotting and I’ll get to it I promise. I also promised Myself that since I started this new one I have to finish the rough draft before M&M

I’ve also decided that that was one of the things holding me back. I have a tendency to start on an idea and then for one reason or another get stuck and then I move on to somethingelse. So I”m going to finish what I start. I’ve proven I can do that with Folklore, I can do it again with Psycokinesis(that’s the working title).

So rejoice with me, we now have a budget. I’ve plotted and written a rough draft of a synopsis fo Psycokinesis and have begun to write the rough draft. Folklore is in Query hell and I have other project waiting to be finished.
Figure out whats holding you back from achieving your goals and power through them. That’s my challenge to you. If you feel like drop me a line .

See you later. Hugs, much hugs. Chudney.